have you?

have you ever felt like your life is not worth living? have you ever felt like the worst thing that ever happened to you, is taking away from you all that you loved?
Like, nothing around you is not worthy of a smile. Like, all of a sudden you get everything you've always been fighting for, and as quickly as it came it leaves you, with a broken heart.
have you ever thought of ending all the pain? have you ever thought of how easy it would be? If yes, forget it. Of course life is worth living. If you ever think the opposite, maybe you're right. Maybe your life at THAT moment sucks, and there's nothing, absolutely NOTHING to live for. But then, think carefully. You have nothing to loose. You'll find something.
Just as I did. The only reason i have to live for right now is the dream, and the possibility of a better future. Of a future when i look back and laugh at myself for all the pain and sorrow i'm feeling right now, for such a superfluous matter. Of a future when i can finally, open my heart to someone without feeling fear of getting it broken again. Without being scared of having to heal a new scar. The old ones will never leave me, but they will also not allow me to forget my struggle. They show all the pain i've been through, and remind me of being careful with who i fall in love with. Yep, i wish my heart himself could learn that.