After all, he was never mine. Well, it's him the one to miss a great girl.
Today I've been given a talk by a friend of mine, some huge piece of inspirational advice.
Here it goes.
And sorry for not writing in so long, I'll try to update the blog at least once a week from now on.
"Hey there, my fighting girl! I've loved your short tale, your Memories, and what I've loved the most is that rebel spirt of yours and that will to fight and fight for a better world, if you keep on with those thoughts and you don't just sit down with your arms crossed and not caring about anything, like most people your age do, I'm sure you will get far. Of course, that form of being isn't exempt from suffering, because struggles also create frustration when they are not listened to or corresponded, but you'll also get much satisfaction if you have enough perseverance and motivation. And that's how I want to see you, motivated, because life without dreams and hopes, whether they're big or small, is nothing. I can see you are frustrated now because you don't get as much attention as you'd want to from the people surrounding you, but I'd like to teach you one of the most important lessons in life: truly, even if we are surrounded by people who give us love and protect us, we are alone, alone with our little intimacies, with our daily nature and moments of loneliness, and only you can get your job done. Now see, this lonesomeness I'm talking about is not bad, it is the solitude of independence, this meaning the only person you will be able to always count on unconditionally is yourself. You will find out that in your darkest times others can keep you company and give you advice, but finally the one who's going to have to face the world will be you, and you'll have to do it on your own. Therefore, don't feel frustrated when you don't find the answers to your life in others, look for them in yourself, listen to what you've got to say, give yourself what you need and let that side of you I so highly admire and value come out. That side which is able to enjoy solitude by inventing a thousand games, ideas and imaginative tasks where you can be yourself and have so much fun. Appeal to your great imagination and talent to evade those not so happy moments that life puts in the path of us all. All in all, beautiful, if you want to create a better world begin with your own universe, and to do so you can only rely on yourself. Others give us what they can or know how to give us, the only one to know what you really need is you and, sorry, but if there's a girl with creativity and inventive, that's you. Make of your room that redoubt of creation and intelligentsia. Explode and explore your gifts, believe in yourself and in you capacity of being with yourself doing productive things, and you will no longer feel alone. When things don't turn out the way you want them to, take refuge in that room of yours and get out the best of you by creating or absorbing knowledge, and you'll see how you get out and produce wonderful things from the bad experiences.
Ah, well, I hope I haven't messed you up instead of helping you. Like we have already said, life is made of little things, but nothing comes by itself, you need to look for those little things. Each one of us must know what we enjoy the most and what takes out the best of us. There's a beautiful quote from Tagore, that says "if you cry because you can't see the sun, your tears won't let you see the stars". Don't allow frustration to prevent you from seeing and to block you, there are so many things that need to be found out there... Have a thousand, well, not a thousand! Eight hundred thousand kisses of mine and you know you can write to me whenever you want or need to. I'd like you to tell me if you have understood this or if I have made a mess of myself and you haven't caught a thing. Let me know. Lot's of kisses again, and remember I love you to infinity and beyond, my rebel without a cause. Lot's of love."
