to live, or not to live

there are 2 ways in which you can live your life. 1: you can live caring about what people think of you. In this way, your life will be a freakking living hell, because there's always someone who's gonna hate you and critizise you, and it's gonna affect you more than it should. 2: you can live your way despite people's oppinions. Imagine someone insults you. Like this, you would just tell the hater to fuck off and carry on with your life in a happy way. Maybe it would bother you (quite normal) but eventually you'd forget it and everything would be alright again, unlike the other way, in which you'd be mulling over about it for too long.
teens tend to carry too much about what people think (i'm guilty too) and that's why their lives aren't as good as they could be, that's why my advice for myself and all the teens who might be reading this is:
Be healthy and fuck everyone. 
(i know Kristen Stewart said that before me). Probably now you'll just close my blog and carry on with your life not caring about my oppinion, as you should do if u wanna live in the second way. So i won't feel offended. No worries ;)

PS: i don't care if i wrote typos. (but sorry anyway)

My struggle

i gotta confess something. i have a pretty common illness throughout teens. I have anorexia. People keep telling me they understand me, they know how i feel, while my psychologist is the only one who does. I just gained 900 gramms and I cried down a river. I know it's not something bad, that it's for the better. But some voice deep in my head keeps telling me i'm fucking obese. I do nothing but tell her to shut up, but she seems deaf. However, i don't care anymore. I realized there are many reasons to live for. There are still many things I've not done and many dreams I want to live. You only get to really appreciate life when you're about to lose it, but it's the best gift you'd have ever asked for. Live your life your way and never give up on what you belive. It's the typical inspirational quote, but it's the bare truth. The only thing i have clear is that i wanna be an anorexia survivor.