I just wanted to talk to you guys about some things.
First of all, if any of you ever want to contact me or anything, drop an ask at my tumblr (letmebeasleepforever.tumblr.com), it would really mean the world to me.
Second, I want - I need - to talk to you about what I'm feeling right now. It's not sadness, sorrow or pain. It's love, love and gratefulness. And I feel all of that towards, four men. For marvelous men who saved my life, and who still do it day after day. Those four men worked hard, very hard, to get what they have and be where they are. And one of them, is my inspiration. My role model. That man is called Gerard Way, and the other three man are Frank Iero, Ray Toro, and Mikey Way. They all make My Chemical Romance, and I need to thank them for getting me out of the dark at the worst times. And I need to thank them for encouraging me to pursue my dreams. Their songs, their lyrics, they all give me the hope no one else knows how to. They are my saviors. Some people say they've changed. And they're right. Just like always. In every album, every song, they change. Why? No song, no album is the same as the others. Each one has a different sound, because they were all inspired by different things. Imagine a band who always did the same kind of music, it would end up being tiring, monotone, and it would bore the fuck out of all the fans. Change is good. So please understand.
Finally, I'll give you some updates about my life. I spent 15 days at the south, and now I'm at Lanzarote, where I will stay for 5 more. Apart from all the nice feelings for My Chem, the daily sorrow is still there. The hole in my chest remains unfilled. But now I distract myself making art, reading, writing, or learning to play the piano/guitar. I've decided to make a good use of my sadness, I'm gonna turn it into inspiration, into strength and courage to go for what I want. To fight for it. I read a phrase the other day which is now my favorite: Forget the risk and take the fall, if it's what you want then it's worth it all. Will I be able to make it? I don't know, but that's not gonna stop me from trying. I'm gonna do all in my hand and more, I can do anything it takes. That's my dream.
I drew this.
Gee approves!
