On and on and on

Fitting in with the world doesn't seem to be a part of my fate. It doesn't matter how hard I try to, well, keep in touch with them, and to meet new people, it's always the same story. Everyone ends up doing boring things I'm not interested in. Well, actually it's not what they do, it's them themselves. I can go out with a friend of mine who loves taking pictures of herself, but she's an interesting girl, he has more than just a pretty face. I have a couple of friends like that. Also, I have a couple of simple interesting friends, but those are the least. The rest are your everyday people, with nothing interesting or special in them, or at least nothing they want to show.
People sooner or later end up leaving me for some reason. Even my "best friends". I admit sometimes it has been my fault. But most of the time, it's just them. But I've stopped thinking the problem is myself, I just haven't found the right people, those who will appreciate me. Well, no, I have found some of those people, actually, it would be unfair to deny it.
And my mom is as absent as always, I bet she's tired of my shit. I'm getting tired too, since we're being honest, but I don't know how to fix this anymore. I know what I could try to do, but I have already done it, and it hasn't worked so well.
I'll keep living for the change, making use of this abilities I have being given, to fulfill my special purpose, whatever it is.
What I need is out there, I just have to keep on searching.