Busted.

My mom and stepfather saw the cuts. They got angry and screamed at me and, just like I expected, didn't understand a thing. They took away from me my razors, and now any social network is forbidden for me, except this one. Including tumblr, so if you follow me there and you don't know why I don't update it anymore, well, now you know. I told them this was like a diary of mine and so I still can use it.
I know they do all of this for me, because they don't want the cutting to get worse, and want me to get cured. They also believe I am bipolar, but I already knew that.
I love them for caring so much about me, but I hate them because they won't let me cut again, and I absolutely need to, like now. I need that cold steal kiss again. I feel just like always, I mean as 'great' as always. I need it. But what can I do? There's no human way of me cutting now that they know I do it.
What can I do now? I have nothing left.