happyness is so relative

i got nothing to say today. just one thing. have you ever felt like, no matter if everything is alright, you just can't feel happy? well, that's what's going on in my head right now. Together with... like, i don't know... a thousand things more. Just like always. Always the same. Nothing ever changes. They say good things take their time to arrive, but i think it's my turn to be happy for once. That i'm a good actress and i'm able to pretend everything's right (and make people really believe it) doesn't mean they actually are. Why can't people see through my walls?